Mazhaye njan snehichu....

അതിരുകളില്ലാത്ത സ്നേഹത്തിന്റെ മുന്നിലാണ് ഞാൻ
എവിടെ നോക്കിയാലും സ്നേഹത്തിന്റെ ആ തണുത്ത സ്പന്ദനം എനിക്ക് അറിയാൻ കഴിയുന്നു ......മുന്ബോക്കെ മനസു മടുത്തു കരയുപോൾ അറിയാണ്ടു ഇശ്വരനെ വിളിച്ചുപോകും....
ഈ പാഴ ജന്മത്തെ തന്നതിന്....അത്ര ഏറെ കരഞ്ഞു തളര്നിരുന്ന നിമിഷങ്ങൾ ..........
ഇന്നും ഓർക്കുപോൾ വല്ലാതെ വെതനികുന്നു എന്റെ ഹൃതയം.....
ഇന്ന്സ്നേഹം കൊണ്ട് മൂടുപോൾ ഇനി മരണം വന്നു മുന്നില് നിന്നാലും എനിക്ക് ഭയമില്ല...കാരണം ഞാൻ സ്നേഹത്തെ അറിഞ്ഞു, അത് മാത്രമല്ല അനുഭവിക്കാനും ഇശ്വരൻ എനിക്ക് യോഗം തന്നു.. പക്ഷെ അപ്പോഴു ഉള്ളിന്റെ ഉള്ളിൽ ഞാൻ ഒളിപിച്ചു വെച്ച ഒരു വലിയ സ്വപ്നമുണ്ട്. എന്റെ കണ്ണുകൾക്ക്‌ ഏറെ ഇഷ്ടമുള്ള,എന്റെ മനസിനു ഏറെ കൊതിയുള്ള...,എന്റെ ജീവന് ജീവികാനുള്ള ഒരു സ്വപ്നം.....ആ സ്വപ്നം എന്നും എനിക്കും ഒരു വെതനയാ........... നടക്കാത്ത ഒരു സ്വപ്നം എത്ര ഭാഗ്യം എനിക്ക് കിട്ടിയാലും ആ സ്വപ്നത്തെ ഞാൻ ഒന്ന് ഓര്ക്കും ഒരു തുള്ളി കണ്ണുനീരോടെ............
മറ കില്ല മഴയെ നിന്നെ ഞാൻ, ഒരിക്കലും മറ കില്ല......അത്രമേൽ ഇഷ്ടമാ..................

Aknjadha Sundari. . .. .

Chennai I'll njan college final year padikkumbol nadanna sambhavam aanu....

Appol Chennai il mazha kalam aayirinnu, Class kazhinju dhivasavum Emu train I'll aanu veetilekku pova, Annum train keyaran central station il ethi, Annu Mazha karanam Ella trains um late aayirinnu, njan platform il , oru kuppi vellavum vaangi , trainu vendi kaathu nilkaayirinnu, Appozhaanu Aa Aknjadha sundhari ente munniloode kadannu poyathu, ennil ninnum oru 10 adi maari aval ninnu, avalde thala mazha kondu nananjatt undayirinnu, avalde shawl kondu aval thala thudachu kondirinnu....njan avale thanne nokki ninnu, avalde soundharyathine enganey varnikka , enikku vaakugal kittunillaa,...avalde soundharyathil njan veenu poyi ennum parayam...
Oru 10 minute kazhinjappol train vannu , njan train il keyari, oru seat I'll chennu irinnu....ennittu purathu nokkiyappol aval aarko vendi wait cheyunnathu pole thoni, aval train il keyarilla, train edukkan samayam aayi, red signal,green aayi.. train horn adichu, appol aval manasilla manasode train odi vannu keyari. Aval train inte vathilkal thanne ninnu kondu platformilottu thanne nokki kondu irinnu, train platform vittu adutha stationilekk cheeri paanju poguvaayirinnu, appozhaanu aval erikkan seat anweshikunnathu, train il pala sthalathum seat Ozhivu undayirinnu ennittum aval ente munnil thanne vannu irinnu, njan njetti poyi, oru side enikk santhoshavum, Oru side il unexplainable feeling aayinnu... njan avalde mugathekku first nokiyilla... njan purathu mazha kazhchakkal nokki kondirinnu...edakide njan avale oru second nokkum.. :P aval enne nokkumbol njan purathekkum nokkum anganey oru 15 minute kadannu poyi, njan avalodu samsarikkan try cheythu, pakshe athinu enikku kazhinjillaa, oru pedi pole ente ullil.......
Kurachu kazhinju njan avale nokkiyappol aval ennodu entho chodhikkan varunnathu pole thoni, njan avale shradhichu nokkiyappol aval kai kondu vellam venam ennu action kaanichu, station I'll ninnum keyarumbol njan oru kuppi vellam vaangi irunnu, njan santhoshathode avalkku kudikkan koduthu, aval kudichu kazhinjattu oru punjiriyode kuppi enikku thirichu thannu, ente manasil laddu pottiya oru feeling undayirinnu.
Kurachu kazhinjappol oru station ethi, aval vathil de aduthu chennu purathekku nokki aareyo nokki onnu chirichu, athu avalde kootukaari aayirinnu avalkku vendiya aval wait cheythe, train eduthappol kootukaari last compartment I'll keyari ennu thonnunu, e station ethiyappol kootukaari ivalde aduthekku vannu, pinne avalum ente munnil vannu irinnu, aadhyam avar on um samsarichilla.... pinne avar samsarikkan thudangi, avar de samsaram kai kondu aayirinnu , aadhyam enikk onnum manasilaayiaa.. ivar entha inganey ennu aalojichu, pinne njan avarde kazhuthil kidanna ID card il sookshichu nokki Tresas School for Deaf and Dumb ennu, ente kannu niranju, njan Ariyathe oru thulli kannu neer ente kannil ninnum purathekku vannu.. njan aarum Ariyathe athu thudachu kalanju , ennittu avarde actions il ente shradha thirichu... ente avarodu paavam thoni... dhaivam ellam orumichu oraalku tharilla ennu parayunnathu neraanu ennu annu enikk manasilaayi,........samayam vegam kadannu poyi , ente station ethi , njan avale avasanam aayi onnu nokki , aval appozhum enne nokki onnu punjirichu... aa punjiriyode njan train vittu erangi veetilekku nadannu..... athinu shesham njan pala thavana aa train il poyi pakshe avalde pinne kandittillaaa... Aval evide engilum sugaayittu jeevikkunnundagum ennu pratheeshikunnu......... aval sherikkum oru Aknjadhaa sundhari thanne........ :)

July 3rd Feast Of St.Thomas.

On July 3, the Church celebrates the feast day of St. Thomas the Apostle. Best known for his initial unwillingness to believe the other apostles in their claim that Jesus had risen from the dead, St. Thomas can teach the faithful about believing without seeing.

As an apostle, Thomas was dedicated to following the Lord. Upon hearing that Jesus was returning to Judea, an area that would pose dangers due to the growing animosity of the authorities there, he immediately said to the other apostles, "Let us also go, that we may die with him" (Jn 11: 16).

Yet despite this determination, Thomas proved not only too weak to stand beside Jesus as he faced his crucifixion, but also doubted the Lord’s Resurrection when he was told about it by the other apostles. Denying their story, he told them, "Unless I see in his hands the print of the nails, and place my finger in the mark of the nails, and place my hand in his side, I will not believe" (Jn 20: 25).

A week later, Christ appeared and said to Thomas, "Put your finger here and see my hands, and bring your hand and put it into my side, and do not be unbelieving, but believe." When Thomas did so he exclaimed, "My Lord and my God!"

In his general audience on September 27, 2006, Pope Benedict XVI spoke of St. Thomas, explaining that we can learn from his doubts, which show us "that Jesus can now be recognized by his wounds rather than by his face."

"The Apostle Thomas’ case is important to us for at least three reasons," said the Pope. "First, because it comforts us in our insecurity; second, because it shows us that every doubt can lead to an outcome brighter than any uncertainty; and, lastly, because the words that Jesus addressed to him remind us of the true meaning of mature faith and encourage us to persevere, despite the difficulty, along our journey of adhesion to him."

After Pentecost, St. Thomas is traditionally believed to have preached the Good News to the Persians and Medes, until he reached India, where he evangelized and was eventually martyred in 72 A.D.

St. Thomas’ feast day is July 3, and he is the patron of architects and builders.